What happens when you get too close to the fire?

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When I went to Nicaragua last summer on a mission trip with my granddaughters, my hair was near its worst. In that overabundance of humidity, I looked like a shaggy mutt with uncontrollable locks. That’s me. Wild, crazy, wavy hair. I plan to go back to Nicaragua in January 2016 and speak. I have tried to let my hair grow out so I can pull it back from my face. Hopefully, the people will see that I’m civilized. 🙂

Last Friday, my in-laws drove up from East Texas to Oklahoma to visit us. My amazing, 91-year-old father-in-law drove the whole 7 hour trip! On Saturday we had a family, hot dog cook-out on our acreage in Guthrie. We arranged old red bricks in a big circle and lit the fire. Before it got hot, I bent forward to straighten a falling brick. Swoosh… the fire blew toward me and pushed me back. I felt hot air and heard a sizzle. I smelled the stink of burning hair. The front of my hair and the right side were frazzled like a really bad permanent (or worse). I thought the hair would fall out.

I was scheduled to speak at church the next morning to about 40 women, our Blended Blessings class. I have not taught there in several years and they asked me to speak on perseverance. I asked my mother-in-law if I should tell my “fire” story at the beginning or the end. She said, “It depends on how bad you look in the morning.”

I researched “burnt hair” on google, and found that coconut or olive oil would help. I poured a half cup of warm olive oil on my hair and worked it through. Just in case you have something this crazy happen to your hair, I had amazing results! I could comb it. (I did get a hair cut on Monday.)

Perseverance means to keep on, not give up, have patience in trials, stick it out, continue, persist, and not lose faith. So here I am with one more small example of “taking a difficult situation in stride.” Did I find joy? Well, at least my face was not burnt. It could have been much worse.

James 1:2 says “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

I shared some of my trials with the ladies: loneliness, divorce, single mom, death, illness, etc. Those ladies are wonderful and I could relate to them. My hair, though back to its craziness because I could not blow dry it, was passable. 

Trials are like that fire. Sometimes they come in a swoosh, very sudden. You might get your hair singed, or you might get hurt real bad. Other times, you might linger too long near the fire and get burnt on the backside. You can’t easily wash off the smell of smoke.

Remember that God promises to help us through the fire. He stands beside us like my husband was standing beside me when the logs burst into flame and rushed toward me. Trust God. He loves you.

You are loved,
Kathryn

My last oxygen treatment for now

I spent my 40th hyperbaric oxygen treatment in silence. No movies. No music. Just two and a half hours of plain old prayer, meditation and dozing.

I never expected to get tired of movies because I’m a great fan of a good plot, but about the 30th flick in a row, Movieland became a bad sedative. Unable to sleep, I have grown adept at guessing plot endings.

Don’t get me wrong, I saw some great movies. Many of you suggested some terrific ones, from The Good Lie to Seven Pounds to Hugo. But enough is enough. Once in a while I need a break.

A few weeks ago, I meditated instead of watching a video. I was nervous at first. After all, two and a half hours is a long time to be immobile, barricaded in a small, clear cylinder with my own thoughts. But now I look forward to time alone with God. Although my thoughts wander, God is patient and brings me back to the conversation. So I’ve said it. My mind meanders. I’m unfocused. But God knows my scattered mind, and he patiently leads me to the lesson I need. Like reading Jude every day for a month, the book we studied at church. I learned a lot.

The treatments help. Cancer free for almost three years now, I do feel better. An unexpected benefit is that my chemo headaches are gone. I’m taking a break while insurance approves another twenty treatments. If that happens, I’ll reassess my list of unseen movies and look forward to a future once-a-week uninterrupted time with God.

Two weeks of movies!

Thanks for your awesome support and prayers during my hyperbaric oxygen treatments. You are my social support team. You also provided me a list of more than 90 movies to watch! How about that! I took about 30 movies off the list because I had already seen or could not watch (Night at the Museum is too scary. I can’t run from the room like I do at home!) The movie list gives me hope that I will not get too bored through the treatments.

My heart beats a little faster the first minutes in the oxygen bubble. I have little control for the next two and half hours. I can knock on the clear glass but I cannot immediately jump up and walk away. The oxygen pressure has to be reduced gradually first, so I am stuck and learning to relax and not worry. God teaches us in many ways.

kathryn going into bubbleI had a dream after the first night of treatment. Dreamed I was speeding in a race car down one of those multilevel, circular, mad Dallas-type highways, steering from the passenger’s back seat and peeking around the person in front of me. Wheels tilted over the pavement edge! No one sat in the drivers’ seat! Then I looked and saw someone driving. A thin, middle aged man with short cropped blond hair. He smiled.  It was Mead, my oxygen treatment tech. I woke and realized I have put my life in his hands.

I did not watch a movie the first day but prayed and dozed for 2 ½ hours. The bubble is too cold for me to sleep, even though I am up to eight blankets, four hospital blankets doubled. Most of the time when the movie ends, I have time to meditate.

Movies I watched. The first movie I declined after 2 minutes. Already had nudity.  (I forgot to take a movie with me.) Then the tech started the next choice. Here are the movies I have watched so far.

  • Fried Green Tomatoes.
  • Taken From Me. Great story line about Tiffany Rubin whose son was kidnapped and taken to Korea.
  • Amazing Love: The Story of Hosea. The book of Hosea, and God’s amazing love story was awesomely portrayed.
  • Under the Tuscan Sun. It was good, real life stuff, but had some sex scenes.
  • Home beyond the Sun. About adoption.
  • Yours, Mine and Ours with Lucille Ball and Henry Fonda.
  • Jane Eyre. The newest one. Charlotte Bronte is definitely a classic writer.
  • The Second Chance. Christian movie.
  • The Philadelphia Story. Old time mushy, with Cary Grant, Katherine Hepburn and James Stewart.

Actually I watched a 10th movie. Leaning Spanish words in preparation for our mission trip to Nicaragua. I have finished 10 movies with 50 more to go!

The treatments are easy and I am feeling fine. They are to help improve my health now and for the future. Radiation can have long term negative effects, especially if you had too much, so these oxygen treatments are helpful for current healing and also preventive care.

You are loved,

I began hyperbaric oxygen treatments #radiationdamage

I started hyperbaric oxygen treatments yesterday to help with wound care and radiation damage. After evaluation, doctors’ referrals and insurance approval, I began the treatments at Mercy Hospital. My cancer has been gone for 2 1/2 years but radiation left some damage to deal with. These  oxygen treatments are supposed to help. So, I look at this as a positive step.

kathryn in bubble

I was nervous as I changed into an all-cotton hospital gown. I could wear no jewelry, lotion, hair products, nail polish, or contacts—due to the risk of catching fire in the oxygen rich chamber!

I spent two and a half hours in a pressurized 100% oxygen bubble, pressurized to about 40 feet below sea level. My ears popped (like in an airplane) during the 15 minutes toward maximum pressurization, and during the 15 minutes as I was brought back to normal pressure.

Yesterday, for the first treatment, I chose to spend the time dozing and praying, reverting back to my radiation days when I sang Jesus songs to myself! I felt fine.

If I could read books during that time, I would be delighted. But unfortunately, I can’t take a book or kindle into the bubble chamber with me. That limits the choices to sleeping, praying, or watching movies.

Every day for the next three months I will spend the morning getting treatments, except the week I go on a mission trip to Nicaragua, and Cousins’ Camp when all 12 grandkids will be here.

Today, I watched “Fried Green Tomatoes” while in the bubble. I love watching movies, but really—60 movies! If you know a good movie, please make a suggestion; I’ll be glad to try it out as long as it is not scary or rated bad!

Please pray for my health and that God will continue to strengthen me. Although I’m not looking forward to time in the bubble, I am looking forward to completing the hyperbaric treatments and hopefully, healing of some radiation damage.

You are loved,

kathryn

Cancer free for two years!

It has been two years since my last radiation or chemotherapy treatment! For two years now, I have been cancer free.

It hasn’t always been easy. I had some effects to deal with but that too, has subsided. Trying to eat healthy. And I am back up to my normal before-cancer weight! (I had hoped to keep off some excess fat but unfortunately, it came back too.)

My husband, Bill, read an internet article to me last night about aging, and how older people had done some amazing things. (Not that I’m old or anything!) What quote I remember most, is something like, I am the youngest today that I will ever be. Meaning, I will never be this young again, so I should make the most of it.

I recently realized that my life goal is not to live a long life, but to live a good life. One in which I can honor God and show his love to others, no matter how many days on this earth I live. Yes, there are still a lot of things I want to do, a lot of things I want to write, but God is in control of that. He will not take me to heaven until all my work is done. This verse helped me see that.

Do not be afraid or discouraged for the Lord, my God, is with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you until all the work for the service of the temple of the Lord is finished. I Chronicles 28:19-20

He promises that I will not leave this world until all my work has been accomplished. In the meantime, I have a lot of living to do! And a lot of people to share God’s love with! I am so thankful for the many people who supported me through the tough times. Mostly, I am grateful to God, my greatest encourager.

You are loved, Kathryn